My dads in a hospice at the moment because he's losing weight, suffering with dizzyness and nausea. When we were told in December 2009 that his camcer was terminal and he had 2 years maybe, I thought once we get his meds sorted we'll get him out and start living the rest of his life.
But my family think I need to start preparing myself and I'm in denial about how long he's actually got left. But how do you prepare yourself?
When he went into the hospice on Thursday I really thought It would just be to try and feed him up and monitor him. But he looks so poorly today.
Reading other peoples blogs and stories on here has made me realise that their stories are similar to mine in many ways and therefore I must accept the future but I thought he would get abit better before worse. But now i'm thinking maybe not.
All the way through my dads illness, since 2008 I always thought he would beat it!! Poor dad if i'm feeling sad goodness knows how he is feeling?? He doesn't talk about it, maybe he's in denial too.
