I received another call from my dad last Night, this is the 3rd call in 3 days after a Mexican stand off as my Sister put it lasting 3.5 weeks
I tried not to react as I heard his voice, but was instantly fearing more hostility. His tone was actually warm and he was quite friendly. Dad was ringing to say go ahead and book into the B&B for Christmas and said that someone had mentioned that the place was nice!
Have now booked B&B and train, so that is Christmas sorted. I don't think it will be plain sailing but having my own space will really help. Train fare was reasonable but B&B price was painful for my purse. Am just in the process of changing jobs and am a bit poor at present, but no debts)
This is a massive step really, maybe it took a while for my perpective on matters to sink in. Whatever, he sounded more at ease and no signs of under current.
Afterall I had the idea of booking in somewhere for everyones sake and to avoid conflict. I have lived alone for many years and am a real Mrs. Bouquet, so fussy about how I like things and need my own space and remote control at hand.....
I don't expect to hear from Mam, other than texts here and there. These have been hostile but demonstrate how worried she is underneath it all.
Am feeling really poorly last few days, think it is the post chemo thing and I have had some blockages- both ends and lots of toilet action. Am just taking it easy and keeping nice and warm and trying to eat when I can and look after my lil self.
Am finding the support from the site is great, some very kind people out there. Much love to you all)
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