Yesterday was my first mother's day without my Mam. I went to the crem to take some flowers and cried all the way home. It was hard but I survived.
Tommorow is one year since she passed away. Again I will be going to the crem with more flowers. In 25 days I will be back there again. This time to take flowers for my Dad who also passed away one year ago.
The past few days have been up and down. Getting on with things and finding myself crying and not knowing what it was that started me off.
Yesterday my daughter gave me a framed photo of me and my Mam that set me off, but then my son said it was all her idea and that made me laugh. I know mam would want me to be happy and be able to laugh at silly things like that because that is what our family was like. I am glad that I can remember good times we had together and not just focus on the terrible events if last year. It gets easier as every day passes. But there isn't a day goes by that I don't think about them both.
