It's nearly three months since mum and dad passed away and i was getting on with things. Going to work and doing every day stuff. I still think about them constantly and wake up crying from dreams I've had of them, but I thought I was doing well.
Then a new boss took over at work and now I can't face going there. Nothing anyone does is good enough and sometimes he talks to you like you've been summoned to the headmasters office. I started looking for a new job and passed an interview for a temporary one. Never mentioned it to anyone, then after a particularly horrible weekend at work I went in yesterday to hand in my notice. Big boss wasn't in so i spoke to my line manager about how I felt. She talked me into staying on for one shift a weeek until I know for sure if I like the new job and told me not to mention the new job to anyone.
Now I have to go in and talk to shift manager about going down to one shift. Not sure if I should tell her how I feel about working for the new boss because I'm not sure what she will do with the information. I want to be honest with her and tell her I can't cope with working in that kind of environment as well as dealing with how I feel about mam and dad. I am not willing to put my health at risk for the sake of a job, but the new job is only temporary so I made need to keep my options open.
Most days I don't even want to get out of bed and if it wasn't for my kids I wouldn't bother. I feel like I don't want to work anymore I just want to spend time with my family because life is too short and they'll be leaving home and having their own lives.
My dad would probably be kicking me up the backside by now and telling me to get on with it,
