Confused and conflicted

  • Birthdays, Death days, poems and more.

    Today is my birthday, last year I spent it in hospital and the year before that it was only a couple of days before it that we found out I was pregnant, so to be honest today has been extremely odd to just be able to be me...a "normal birthday" so to say, no wires on my fingers, no drips in my arms, no panic attacks over a surprised positive sign on a stick after thinking you couldn't have children... It's been lovely…

  • The beginning and the end.

    Before I write anything else I just want to say I don't really know if anyone will read this, which is okay because it may not make much sense. But I really just wanted to find a place to put my thoughts and feelings in a safe hopefully understan...