my op

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had my operation on monday to remove the cancer from my vagina. doctors say it went well and now i am back home.. thing is, i made the mistake of looking in the mirror of down below.. and now i think im going to e a freak and look deformed all my life and i still dont know until the 23rd if they have all the cancer or not.. what if i have gone threw all of this for nothing and have to hae more surgery..??? its from the top of my clittorus all the way around to my anus and now im going to be a freak all my life.. already had people take the mickey out of me ad call me names because i have has surgery on my vagina.. been signed off work for 4 weeks now and i dont get paid either.. mac millan got me a grant of 300 but my rent is 120 a week.. alone on isle of man with no family so i dont know what i am going to do.. and its xmas soon... am having a really low low time and i dont know how much more if this i can take right now...

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Claire x

    As everyone has said you are very brave! I wish  i was near you as i would give you the love and support you need right now, You will have to give youreself time and stop worrying about how you look. This  time of year makes everyone very emotional and especially going through surgery and all that goes with having cancer. Look forward now, think of the spring of the year  the hard bit is over and set youreself little goals things to look forward to. The people who talk and say things are not worth worrying about as cancer can effect everyone at some point in thier lives,and they will realise how cruel and narrow minded they have been in thier past and have to live with it. So you keep youre chin up  and just think about youre future and how good you are going to do for youreself !! You stay positve and look forward youre news will be good and we will all have a drink on here to celebrate with you hun xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Claire just read your blog, and my heart goes out to you, please contact your family and ask if you can go there for a few weeks over the xmas period, you arnt working so there s nothing to spoil, you need company, regarding the money i can so empathise with you, i dont get paid from work either and my ssp stops in Feb so that means my working tax credits will too, my mortgage is 400.00 a month, if you find out anything about financial help i would be interested to hear, i too was given a grant from Macmillans early on which was a lifesaver at the time but i wouldnt dare ask for more, i suppose its the way i ve been brought up, silly i know cos we are the genuine ones arnt we???  Its early days for your op my love in time it will heal and its nothing to be ashamed of quite the opposite feel proud of yourself for dealing and going through such a lot when most would crumble.

    Love n Strength to you.

    Jill

    x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    i had a radical vulvectomy 9 years ago hun..and i fully understand the freak feeling.It is such a difficult thing to discuss and for other folk to undertand .I have had no support from any organisatiion and have only just stumbledupon this site!!I will support you in ay way i can hun..you are not alone .hugs xxxx