10 yr marriage break up, Hysterectomy,Breast cancer with full mastectomy and reconstruction. relationship breakup,7 months of chemo ,single parent 2 children, Back to work they stopped paying me, Shingles,joint pains,osteoperosis,MRSA, bowel problems, colonoscopy,nipple reconstruction,MRSA again. Im at the end of my tether crying all the time. Bad dreams that i cant remember, broken sleep, legs moving all the time im sat quiet. Crying, Dont want to speak to any of my friends. What is wrong am i a fraud or just a wimp.
Hmm. I’m very good at kicking myself when I’m down, too. If any one else said I was a fraud and/or a wimp I’d kick them to the curb. If my daughters friend or boyfriend etc said this Od be madder than a mad hatter. Yet, despite having a zero-tolerance for abuse (emotional, mental financial etc) I’m somehow perfectly fine to abuse myself. Nope, not doing that no more — yet I do at times without even registering it.
