10 yr marriage break up, Hysterectomy,Breast cancer with full mastectomy and reconstruction. relationship breakup,7 months of chemo ,single parent 2 children, Back to work they stopped paying me, Shingles,joint pains,osteoperosis,MRSA, bowel problems, colonoscopy,nipple reconstruction,MRSA again. Im at the end of my tether crying all the time. Bad dreams that i cant remember, broken sleep, legs moving all the time im sat quiet. Crying, Dont want to speak to any of my friends. What is wrong am i a fraud or just a wimp.
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hells bells you seem to have been through the mill!!!.
you will get past the crying stage... find the strength... how can your friends help if you dont let them.sounds like you have that restless leg syndrome?? have you asked your doc ... i had it its sooooooo frustrating. all i have to offer is
you are far from a wimp or a fraud ,you've had some real difficult things to deal with its no wonder you feel the way you do.
we are all good at giving sympathy to other ppl but feel we are just kicking up a fuss or moaning for nothing when we are the ones who are suffering....its really important you talk to ppl tho and dont bottle it all up .if you dont want to talk to family or friends maybe it would be a good idea to go see your gp or get in contact with a macmillan nurse ,the longer you bottle it all up just plodding on the worse you are likely to feel.good luck hun i hope you start to feel much better soon
Hello cheryl, we havent spoke before but i ve just read your latest blog, you are fantastic no way a wimp, i thought my story was bad til i read yours, and there will be someone worse off than you, no consolation tho i know.
I can so empathise with you on the relationship front, i split a year gone may from my husband absolutely devastated only married a short time, i loved that man to bits, long story for another day perhaps? Just getting over it then bang July this year had my diagnosis, cancer of the tonsil primary and secondaries left lymph node in my neck!!!!!! You think dont you how much can one take then you think of your children, i dont know how old your s are mine are 24 23 and 17 all girls, we have to stay strong for them, one has left home now,the middle one is moving back home temporary and of course the youngest is at home and going to college. I think they dont deserve this on their young shoulders, i think sometimes its worse for family, we as the patient know how we feel, you cant expect them to know, we have cried and better cried but we are all there for each other and you and your children will be darling.
You are handling it your way and no one can mock you for that we are all different, i love people around me and become more sad when im on my own esepcially at night when you are tucked up in bed alone!!!!!!
Just wanted to say try (and i know its hard) and keep positive, and like i do just take a day at a time, dont look ahead cos that can be quite daunting,
Anytime you want a moan or rant dont hesitate to contact me cos we need to let it out sometime for sanity LOL
Cheryl, I don't blame you for being at the end of your tether, what you've been through is enough to test a saint! Have you been offered any counselling? If not, it is worth asking for this as it can be very helpful. In the meantime you will find lots of support and understanding on this site. Please feel free to PM me if you want to chat. Best wishes, Christine xx
