I saw the consultant yesterday and he told me that he is running out of treatment options. I am about to have No 6 of gemcarbo and he is talking about having weekly taxol as next line. He also told me that he thinks I have months to live not years. But he didn't say a number. I don't know what to think now. I don't feel ready to die, I hope it might be more than 12 months but who knows it could be 3 or 4. One minute I feel ok and the next I am in tears, I haven't told my children yet as one of them is doing her GCSEs. They both seem so happy at the moment and I don't want to spoil that for them. If anyone can give me some advice it would be greatly appreciated. I am due to finish my current chemo over the next two weeks then have a CT scan before I go back on the 15th July.
