I went for a walk with the dog tonight. Rain has many beauties, one of which being it hides tears well. Thoughts are racing at the moment. I want another chance to make things work. I want Mel to beat the cancer this time. I'm sure if we had another go, we'd beat it.
So many things we'll never do again, so many things we'll miss out on. There are no answers. I remember the consultant saying "it wasn't…