Just so pissed off at moment. Getting referred to Orthopaedic re my left arm and shoulder as its getting worse despite physio; movements were getting better, but there seems to be a block somewhere as when we try to push a bit more it freezes up. Doctor has put me on Tramadol again and put me on Citalopram.
Yip hubby scared he will hurt me as he jumps, leg twitches etc so he sleeping in other room or on the sofa at moment, still does not come near me even when awake, tried so many times with him and explained how I feel, now he just feck off!!!! Mickey gets all his affection more than I do and thats up front. But we went to a friends' 25th wedding anniversary on Saturday past and at least I got a slow dance with him.
Eldest daughter just had letter to confirm she has the missing code in the BRAC2 Gene, so I am trying to keep her going also, youngest is going to get blood test next month on the 7th. So worried for her also.
I have not lost anymore weight, but sticking at only 46kg,
dietician/nutritionist says she can help me get up to 52 before my next
operation by getting in the smoothies again due to another mouth ulcer
on my bottom gum. I have lost my bite and can't chew much so yip fecking
pissed of at that as just getting my appetite back, taste buds back and
was starting to eat a bit better, even swallowing was a bit better. 
Friday 10th June: Been a very sleepy day today re pain keeping me awake through the night. Found a tens machine and put it to use on shoulder, hope it helps ease pain. When woke up in afternoon, post had brought some good news. D.L.A. has been awarded!!!! Well Well Well, want to rub the letter in the face of that Welfare Officer who told me last year it was a waste of my time and I would not get it at all and actually made me feel as if I was irrelevant as he gave me the brush off.
