Feeling Guilty again

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Hi all AGAIN, I should have added to my last blog which I have just sent that I am feeling awful tonight. My husband (told this before so sorry to repeat) is having problems with his "working out" memory and has mood swings (sometimes like an aggressive drunk) and when he goes to bed which is sometimes early evening he knocks on the floor for me to come up as he cant work out the remote control on the TV. Thsi will happen LOTS of times. Because I was tired I kind of jokingly said Im going to take this baseball bat away!!! (he use it to knock on the floor to me) He wasnt happy and took it wrong. I have found myself going up anyway as he hasnt knocked down. Am I never happy??????? I feel awful as I really dont mind it is just relentless just now. I should never have said it. He isnt well and can't help it. Although again feel bad for thinking this but he must remember that I said to try not to knock so much. Sorry just a moan tonight!!!! Caroline x
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