I wrote before about how my husbands mood swings are difficult. Yesterday wasn't good. we had a small window of reason but that was it. I managed to get to the shops for an hour with a friend but all the time wondered how he was, and shouldn't have as was sound asleep on the couch. I have to contact someone today again, going to phone the cancer nurse and go into Maggies as he is being very unreasonable, sometimes doesnt make sense and confused too. I know I have to say but at the same time feel I am telling tales. It is heartbreaking to see him like this. We are supposed to be going to ENT today as he had a cancerous cyst removed from his ear few weeks ago. How can kidney cancer be in your ear?lungs lymph brain and bone (thats a tiny bit though).
Been awake from 4am. I don't seem to get much bed space these days!!! Plus my mind seems to get active the minute I waken briefly.
Sorry all for moaning a bit just getting it off my chest.
Caroline xx
Caroline you are allowed to have a good moan about it, dont apologise. Hopefully Maggies can be of help. I tend to think that I'm quite an easy going laid back person but have been worrying in case I start to have mood swings and start to get angry that cancer has decided to take a hold of me. But then I think ok, it might take me over physically but I'm refusing to allow it to take me mentally or emotionally - sometimes harder done than said I know. Might be hard for this to be done but us patients have to remember that it's not just us that are effected but our family and friends too can be devasted by it especially the carers.
Hoping that the mood swings ease up a bit and you get it a wee bit more easy but feel free to moan about it anytime you want.
Hi Caroline, please don't apologise for moaning. That's what this site is for, to give and get support from others in the same position who completely understand.
I do so hope you get the help you need with your husband. I know what you mean about feeling you are telling tales, but it has to be talked about I suppose.
Here's hoping things improve for you both. Christine xx
