Bugger - I finally have to admit it, I feel really tired. I am trying to tell myself that its end of a busy year tiredness - but this is different and in my heart I think I know its the treatment. This is a bit like being the duracell bunny, whose batteries sunddenly run down:o) My eyes feel tired and if a sit in a comfy chair for more than 5 minutes I doze off. I have been working for some of each cylce, but this week I have struggled to do full days and have felt shattered during the evening - which I didn't expect because its the end of cycle two and my white cell count is fine.
I had hoped to get past cycle three which is tomorrow, before I felt this tired and had to contemplate asking the GP to sign me off. So I am disappointed that I am having to consider this now, I know I can hear you all saying - rest, listen to your body and I am, honest. At any other time I would love to have 4 month annual leave, but I don't want 4 months + sick leave.
One down side of the tiredness which seems to be more mental than physical, is that I now have the attentions span of a gnat!!! - which means I get halfway through some of the blogs on here which I really enjoy - and I lose the plot. So sorry guys if I don't participate as much - the hands are willing the brain and the eyes don't want to play.
So I am praying that it is end of year, doing too much tiredness, that if I rest over Christmas I maybe able to work for a little longer - yes I know optimistic of me.
And to add insult, my poor sister, who I am spending Christmas with has a stinking cough - do I go or do I not, do I ask the nurse tomorrow for a mask? How to you eat turkey and roast tatties through a mask?
Have a wonderful christmas all, take care
Love Carol xx
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I think you have to realise at some point that you are not superwoman! You have done a sterling job so far but eventually all the chemicals build up and we have to give in. I will keep this short - thinking of your attention span - at some point we have to listen to our bodies. Don't be too hard on yourself - becomming a 'lady that lunches' isn't all bad (if you can tase :o) ) Have a brilliant Christmas and a Healthy New Year Carol - Best wishes and Love Jools xxxxxx
Aah thank you, I think I am realising I have to give in. Had my chemo today and snoozed for most of the time, its a bit like the body being willing but my brain says oh no you don't. Swapped my silicone barbie today and my wonderful breast care nurse told me the same thing, so I am listening and resting . On a good point I am now the proud owner of an Ameona prosthetic. Much better fit and its stays in place. Yes!!
