Hi Guys,
before i start, im sorry every time i right a post, or chat to you im always moaning about how im feeling.
My best friend in the whole world gave birth to a beautiful baby boy the other day. It took her a whole day to call me and tell me her good news - her excuse - she was scared she upset me. All i could think of was - Have i been that bad that my best friend felt she couldnt talk to me.
I thought i would be fine - i love children. I went to see them both today, her first words to me when i arrived was I hope your not jealous, i know i have what you always wanted. I was so angry, why would i be jealous how so insensitive.......................
When i saw her wee boy ( Shay) all i could see was mylittle girl - Is this normal, i couldn't wait to get our her house.
I feel really bad now though as i think i might have been a bit rude with her. I havent been able to stop crying since...i sat for an hour when i got home clutching Carlie's blanket - I miss her so much - why couldnt it have been me she had her whole life ahead of her - i dont understand.
