I remember when i fell pregnant, it couldnt have been better timing. Me and my husband had been trying for nearly 3 years, and finally it had happened. My pregnancy was really easy i had no problems what so ever. When i went into labour my beutiful little girl was here within 3 hours she was a healthy 6lbs3. Carlie she was perfect in every way.
The first 2 years of her life just flew in, she was perfect in every way. Then she started getting very unwell, docs said at beginning it was a viral infection. The viral infection never cleared up, she was sent to Yorkhill Childrens Hospital in Glasgow for different tests. To cut a long story short she was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia.
Carlie fought so hard to fight and was in remission 11 months later. The relief was overwhelming we had our little girl back. A month later the cancer was back and it was very agressive. Carlie lost her fight just before Christmas 2009.
I cant believe that my perfect little girl is now no longer here with me. I am going through everyday life like a zombie feeling so empty. I am constantly crying all the time. I cant eat, I cant sleep. My husband ( so called) told me last week he thinks im heading for a break down and he just cant bear to be around me.
I have been in chat for the last few weeks but i feel uncomfortable talking sometimes. I hate bringing the conversation down. When people ask if im okay, i cant say no im terrible so my usual answer is okay even though im screaming inside.
Anyway im sorry i just needed to get that off my chest, thanks for reading
Megan x
