I never expected this to hit me this year. I need to tell you I'm sorry CK. Tomorrow it is 2 years since they told you you weren't going to get better. I remember it so clearly. I told the counsellor last year that I would try not to dwell on dates this year - not a good start eh? I need to try harder because it does no good so I thought maybe a blog would give me somewhere to dump the anxiety. It has to be worth a try. Everything started to move so fast from tomorrow but there is nothing to be gained from me dwelling on it now. I have been doing so well thinking of the well you and not the ill you so I really don't want to take a step back now. It is up to me I know. Maybe now I have acknowledged the anniversary on here I will be able to settle. I love you & miss you very much but you deserve me to think of the good times so that is what I will do. Together Forever xxx(x)
