Tomorrow is meeting wiv oncologist. I reely don no wot to expect. He will have luked at the scans more and hav more result for me. He will no wot if any treetment they can giv me to tayk way sum of the symptoms.
I just want them to sawt the payn. I got new pills, they are a bit beta. Sometyms the payn is less but then coms bak agen. I still hert mor than i dont. Niyt time is worse.
I am fyndin it v hard, v v v v hard and jus do not no wot to fink. I am gowin to lissin tomorrow an see. I no ther is no cure... so i am not gowin in ther with the hope of miracles. I gow hopin not to hav payn.
I am scard, but mor scard of upsettin peepal arownd me.
I feel lyk I will always be herting sum1
But I wud lyk to say fank u to ev1 who has left me a messig... they are all so luvly xxxxxxxx
