I guess I have been in denial. Haven't had time to take in that hubby has cancer, never mind that I am going to lose him soon. Spoke to his oncologist yesterday and the next couple of days are critical. He has massive infections from the chemo and is not doing well at all. Even if he does get through this, he won't be able to handle more chemo and the cancer is very agressive so I won't have him for long and I don't think he will be able to come home again.
I am having a very difficult time dealing with all of this. Still not able to process it all in my brain I guess. Too much, too fast.
