Doctor for intensive care just called and scared me. He is doing the same. She is so negative and I don't really like her, I would like to get him transferred somewhere else but don't think at this point that is possible. She said hubby has massive infection in his stomach area which he has had since being in hospital 4 weeks ago. His kidneys are not working well, they are having trouble keeping his blood pressure up, etc.etc.etc. Not to mention the cancer. His platelets are low from his one and only chemo treatment, his drain came out and the radiologist will not put it back because of the low platelets. He needs the drain or he will puff up again and put pressure on the lungs and never come off the respirator. So not a good start to my day.
Yesterday he seems so much better, less reliance on the respirator and perky. She asked again about me giving a 'no recussitation' order but I can't do that yet. He is only 57 and his mind is clear, he is awake and aware and not ready for that yet.
We have had good visits with family and his last brother from Montreal is planning on coming possibly this weekend so I have had quite a bit of support from them, friends have been great but at the end I am lonely here by myself and wanting him home again. It has just been much too fast. In July he was fine, now I don't know if he will ever come home again.
