Unreality

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Here I am, feeling fit & well, apart from effects of stress, yet I am a person who has cancer.

I've had a bladder tumour removed, yet I have been told it may still be lurking deeper or even have spread.

I'm studying the sickness policy from work, cancelling a holiday & claiming for cancellation.  Somehow telling my friends has been OK but dealing with this paperwork makes me feel it's really something serious.

It's the forthcoming surgery & subsequent intervention that will make me feel unwell. Having had one general anaesthetic for TURBT, at least I have some idea what to expect for the next day surgery visit.

At least I'm managing to get on with ordinary living in the meantime. I've no list of ambitions to fulfill so I'll stick to my day to day activtes.

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Teasswill

    Do you know what i feel the same, am well getting on with things as you have to and all seems a bit surreal. My surgery is looming too, I just dropped my sick note into work and they were all amazed at how well i look!!!!   Aghhhh i know they all care but I am fine Im just waiting for the magic medcial man to get rid of this damn tumor.

    I had minor surgery yesterday and feel tired but other than that its normal service.

    Good luck with forthcoming op and subsequent treatment.

    Hugs

    Jules xx

  • Good luck to you too.

    Hope the op gets rid of yours completely.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Ladies,

    Tell your friends never  Judge a Book by its cover.

    All the best and Good Luck to you Both.

    Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

  • Hi Teasswill.

    Yes! thats exactly how i feel now the turbt is done, and the first check up completed and ok.......... now what? i feel mostly ok, am doing my normal daily work activities, and apart from a severe lack of funds would be doing pleasure activities also, its a strange one at the moment a kind of limbo for the next 5 or so years to see if it stays away or comes back, we just have to get on with life as we did before and dont let it consume us into a black hole of despare, which could be so easily the case if you let it.

    I hope all goes well for you.

    Pauli..........

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi, i feel the exact same, I popped into work on Thursday for a coffee and everyone I met said I looked great and really healthy!!!!! If only they knew what was going on in my head. I think of the future and my histology results due this week and all the future appts., etc to look forward to !! not! Take care x