Mums funeral tomorrow 21st Sept

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FormerMember

20 Sep 2009

It's mums funeral tomorrow, I am dreading it.

Up to now, I have had mixed emotions. Crying a lot when she first died, I was there.

Then relief that she wasn't in anymore pain. Then talking about her to friends and relatives, I smile.

Then somedays I laugh. Somedays I don't even believe it, I still feel she is alive and at home or in the hospital.

It doesn't seem real.

Dad is very down today, he cried on the phone saying how much he missed her. It's heart breaking. I can only be there for him, I don't know what else to do.

I wish I could magic mum back, she was a wonderful mum/wife and would do anything for us.

Tomorrow is the cremation and I feel she will be gone forever. I'm just hoping that it's just her shell that has gone and her spirit and soul are still with us.

I just want to hug and kiss her.

Binnie xx

FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hi, just read your blog. So sorry for your loss. It will be difficult for you all but as jools said best to think of it as a celebration of her life rather than a goodbye. We will all be thinking of you and your family and I will light a candle which will burn throughout the day and symbolise the freeing of mum's spirit.

Love and angel hugs x x Patricia(dev) x x
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hello All,

Just got back about 90mins ago.

We ended up going back to dads house after the reception at the golf club, then we all went out for tea.

The funeral was fine, loads of people came, mum was very popular.

I cried a little, but not as much as I thought I would. It seemed odd that I was at my own mothers funeral, when it felt like someone elses. I think it upset me more the day mum died than today, I kept thinking it wasn't her in

the coffin.

My dad kept looking behind him at the golf club expecting mum to be there .

The songs they played at the crematorium set everybody off crying. It was very moving.

My brothers and my nephews carried the coffin.

We have come home with the flowers saying "Mum" on and we are going to take them to her parents grave where they are both buried.It seemed such a shame

to leave them behind to rot.

Dad did very well too, he held it together.

I've just cried once I got home now as I now know she has gone forever.

Belinda xx
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Hello All

Just got back about 90mins ago.

We ended up going back to dads house after the reception at the golf club, then we all went out for tea.

The funeral was fine, loads of people came, mum was very popular.

I cried a little, but not as much as I thought I would. It seemed odd that I was at my own mothers funeral, when it felt like someone elses. I think it upset me more the day mum died than today, I kept thinking it wasn't her in

the coffin.

My dad kept looking behind him at the golf club expecting mum to be there .

The songs they played at the crematorium set everybody off crying. It was very moving.

My brothers and my nephews carried the coffin.

We have come home with the flowers saying "Mum" on and we are going to take them to her parents grave where they are both buried.It seemed such a shame

to leave them behind to rot.

Dad did very well too, he held it together.

I've just cried once I got home now as I now know she has gone forever.

Belinda xx
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