Lung sclc, now glands, now in neck. plz advise? sooo depressed.
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hi, i was diagnosed with small cell lung in feb, they aid it was 2cm and i had a good chance of a cure, with a clinical trial called converse. i did al the tests, the scans etc.. they said i was fit enougth to take it. the word cure, made me feel eurphoric, i was so pleased. then the body scan results camr back and aid i had cancer in a gland on /near my kidneys, and the trial was out the window, i was devastated as i had already told my family the so called good news. then i developed a lump on my neck, they would not confirm what it was nor still havn't, so i asked the ultimate question, how long approx do i have? with chemo approx 2yr, without 6 month. came the answer. so they picked me up and dropped me like a hot brick in a couple of days. they cannot operate. had first lot of chemo today 18th , i am so depresed, i get approx 4 hr sleep a night, is it worth it? why me? when will i ever accept this? i dont mind being dead, its just i don't want my 4 children to suffer (all grown) i also have 6 g/children i am 50yr old, and feel robbed. i feel i have betrayed them, let them down cos of smoking. i hate the chemo, i feel like a bag of pills. i cannot take this in, cannot tell my children that they say 2yr . they sre to pleased with original word of cure. why are thet torturing me? i am so sorry this is a depressing blog. but i have had enough! i cant accept this invasion. i hate going to christies (manchester). firdt day and feel nausea, please does anyone have any encouragement that will ease my anguish? i am so desperate.
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does anyone else recieve chemo 3 days a week? i have it tues, weds, thurs,
hi again betty, everyones chemo is different, i know a girl thet has it once a week small doses over a long time, i know people who only have one or two, it depends what your oncologist thinks ,what would work best on your type of cancer i`m sure there are people who have the same, if you write a new blog, instead of adding to this one more people will see it (i think), as this will be added to your first blog,but dont get disheartened if no one, has cos it might just be no one who read your blog has the same.
Hi Betty, I have just seen your post which is why I am only writing now. I feel so much for you. My mum was diagnosed with lung cancer just over a month ago - went into hospital with suspected heart failure and they found it then. At first she didn't want her husband to tell any of us and worry us with it, but we are all really glad he did as it has given us the chance to spend some really good quality time with her and talk about the things that are important. I would have been devastated if I hadn't had that opportunity. She is going through chemo at the moment and we are all close to them in everything that happens. We all live in different parts of the world but all go back and forward because she's our mum and she's so important to us. We would have hated the thought of them doing it all alone. There's never a good time to break news like this but it does put everything into perspective and strangely enough, some very good things have come out of this horrible time. Lots of hugs to you and your family betty xxxxxxx
