Hi everyone, I cant believe how long is has been since I have been on here. So much has gone on since. Mum has been on another round of chemo but a tablet form. She was doing so well on it at first and it was keeping the cancer at bay but now we have found out that the last two courses she has had has not done anything for her as it has started growing again.
Before she started this round of chemo she had to have some radiation as the cancer has gone to her thigh bone and a couple of her ribs. We have just found out npw that she is going to have more radiation next week as it is in her spinal cord so they are going to blast that.
The doc has said that she is too poorly at the minute to try any more chemo and even if she was feeling better, they are now limited on what they can give her now.
I am so scared! I know mum is beating the odds as she only got given 12 months to live in April 2009 but it seems like everything is coming crashing down on us. She is always tired and today she is so sick, I think it is taking over and I dont know what to do.
I've had my baby now and he totally lights up her day, so does my little boy who is 3, they really do keep her going but it seems like the more ill she gets the less patience she has with them which is understandable.
My husband and I brought our wedding forward so my mum could be there, we had a fantastic day and I was so happy that mum was there but unfortunately my husbands mum couldnt make it. she was so ill in hospital with her cancer that she couldnt get out of bed. We ended up going into the hospital in our wedding clothes to see her so se could see what we looked like.
Unfortunately she died a couple of weeks after the wedding, she had secondary liver cancer and it was on her stomach lining. We have found all this really hard to take and she went down hill really quick. We are only young (24 and 26) and we shouldnt be losing our mothers, its not fair.
I dont know what I want to get out of writing on here, I just felt I needed to x
