New to all of this....

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Hello,

I'm pretty new to all this, was only diagnosed with thyroid cancer a week ago, so am still feeling a tad shocked about it, but then i go to the other extreme and feel like im a fraud and really shouldn't be getting upset about it. In the 24 hours that followed that fateful day, i found out my best friends grandmother has cancer and it is more than likely to be terminal and one of my work mates wife has terminal cancer. So i started feeling like i had no right to get upset or had any reason to cry and moan, as compared to them, mine isn't that bad.

I then start worrying about how everything is going to be paid for when i have to undergo treatment, my partner cant find work and my work has made it clear i will only be getting ssp.. so i start to panic, what happens if im halfway through treatment and ive got to move, but have no where to go.... and local councils are not very willing in helping untill you are in a complete mess with no where to go, or it seems mine isnt.

Im then worrying about how my partner, friends and family about this and feeling like i have to be the strong one, as my family and partner are falling apart... i just feel in all of this regradless of how i feel, no one is actually going to listen to me.... i guess right now im feeling alone.

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    And like seeds dreaming beneath the snow

    your heart dreams of spring.

    Trust the dreams

    Things tend to be better than we imagine, have faith, my thoughts are with you,

    Billy

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Many of us have been at the same place where you are right now and things have been sorted out. You have only just started your journey love, your emotions are all over the place and we are all here to listen to you, so never think that you are alone. I have been on the site for 2 years now and the amazing people on here have helped carry me through and we will do the same for you. Life is full of 'what ifs, buts and maybes'. Take one day at a time and things will start to fall into place....love Carol x

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    FormerMember

    and as for no one listening or feeling alone - that all stopped the minute you joined here.

    You now have an army of "cyber supporters" right behind you.  We can gently nudge you, massage you, kick you up the butt if needed, listen to you, scream, cry and laugh with you.  Because we understand.

    Good luck with the treatment and just remember, we are but "one click away"

    Love & Strength

    Debs xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Aofie,

    12 yrs ago I had to have my larynx,lymphnodes,

    and Thyroid removed because of this terrible disease. I was told I had 3 yrs to live at the most, and I can assure you its not a Ghost writing this blog. Yes Im still here in remission. You could not have better friends and loving caring people,who will listen when you want to talk or Scream or cry,and

    some would kick you up the Bum,wouldnt you Debs?. Your in the right place if you need help we are always here.

    Take care and be Safe Love Sarsfield.xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hiya, just read your blog, i was like you last july when i got diagnosed but i was a single parent, only got ssp and that has stopped now and another benefit has kicked in, it is frightening with money worries you dont need them trying to fight this awful disease do you?   It takes time to get your finances sorted but get in touch with this site regarding financial matters they can point you in the right direction, i was so stressed trying to sort out my money worries as well as the cancer, but things are coming together now.

    Take care and if you ever want to chat feel free to get in touch.

    Jill

    x