Hello,
I'm pretty new to all this, was only diagnosed with thyroid cancer a week ago, so am still feeling a tad shocked about it, but then i go to the other extreme and feel like im a fraud and really shouldn't be getting upset about it. In the 24 hours that followed that fateful day, i found out my best friends grandmother has cancer and it is more than likely to be terminal and one of my work mates wife has terminal cancer. So i started feeling like i had no right to get upset or had any reason to cry and moan, as compared to them, mine isn't that bad.
I then start worrying about how everything is going to be paid for when i have to undergo treatment, my partner cant find work and my work has made it clear i will only be getting ssp.. so i start to panic, what happens if im halfway through treatment and ive got to move, but have no where to go.... and local councils are not very willing in helping untill you are in a complete mess with no where to go, or it seems mine isnt.
Im then worrying about how my partner, friends and family about this and feeling like i have to be the strong one, as my family and partner are falling apart... i just feel in all of this regradless of how i feel, no one is actually going to listen to me.... i guess right now im feeling alone.
