Hello everyone, i'm new to the site. I have been reading some of your fantastic blogs and found lots of inspiration and comfort from them so thank you for posting. I was diagnosed 9th october 2009, at the age of 44, right in the mist of breast cancer awareness month, i found this hard because i couldn't deal with it in private it was all over the place. I found at times this annoyed me because when i wanted to escape and not think that I had cancer up it popped again. But I put a brave face on things and joined in with passing ballons around with my facebook friends etc, when inside I wanted to scream I have got cancer. I have now come to terms that I am a cancer patient, and have told friends and family. The support I have had as been amazing and as helped to keep me from going mad. I have been through all the emotions possible, didn't realise there was so many ways I could feel. I had my lumpectomy and SNB 2 weeks ago today. Yesterday we went for the results of this, good news is that all the cancer has been removed and only one of the seven nodes removed showed signs of cancer. So next stage I have to face is to meet with my oncologist to find out what chemo I need and for how long, then radiotherapy and finally tamoxifen. But I know that with everyones support I am going to get through all of this. But it has made me realise that life is too short and you don't really know what is around the corner even if you plan things to the last detail. So i'm taking each day has it comes and if i want to do somethink or buy something i do it. Love to every single one of you using this site you are all amazing xxxxx
