Hi all
More blood taken, more questions, more information I feel my head is going to burst and my blood is going to run dry by the end of this journey. I know a lot more big words now than i've ever known lol. Went through what is going to happen next friday chemo day, not sure if i'm still going to be ready for it. She gave me a DVD for me to watch about the chemo process, I put it on and turned it off straight away couldn't bring myself to sit through it.
She asked me if i had decided to have the cold cap to prevent my hair dropping out. Last week I was adamant that I wasn't having it, having one lot of discomfort was enough with out having another thing. But I keep looking at my hair and trying to imagine my self bald and I can't. My husband said it doesn't matter to him he will love me what ever happens and we will face it together, but at the end of the day I am the one who has to go through it. I said to the nurse i was going to try and sit with a bag of frozen peas on my head to see what it feels like lol. I have a week to decide whether to have the cold cap or not, decisions decisions. Did any of you use the cold cap? This is going to be a hard decision especially seeing that my 11 year old has said that he doesn't want to see me with out hair.
One minute I'm ok then the next I feel that I am crumbling. Once the first cycle is over and done with I am hoping I will feel better because I will know what to expect for the next time.
Love and Hugs Amanda xx
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