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Hi Alan so sorry your feeling down, hope things soon pick up, if a big hug helps one is on the way, take care xx

Alan,

We are all allowed to have a down day, or two or three down days. I myself have been feeling low, and it is the thought of cancer returning that’s making me feel low. But, I’m going to try put it to the back of my mind, and focus on what’s around me, my family, my friends, my daily life, just take one day at a time Alan, and whatever the day brings, we deal with it.

We all have doubts, and disbelief of what the doctors are telling us.

I got three lumps in my neck that I can feel, yet im being told they don’t look “abnormal” and “not to worry”. We all do worry, but only when we feel that there is something to worry about.  I have my check up this week at hospital to.

The thing is, as much as anyone says life after cancer is great, it isn’t, not until you get your head round everything. Not until you come to accept the new normal you. You will get there Alan, just takes time, and remember bad days are allowed, because then your good days make up for the bad days.

Its pants when you don’t like your work place, thats another reason I haven’t returned to work yet, because I didn’t like my work place, its horrid, so can understand why you have to fight with yourself every morning to get out of bed to go to work. Try applying for something else, you just never know, a company may say, yes, a great man, thats willing to work, lets take him on. Just try to find the positive out of the negative. And it will get easier.   Hope this makes sense to you and that it doesnt sound like a ramble.....

Now... time to have words with yourself.. and bring a smile back on your face. We will deal with problems when they come along, just don’t think about anything til it actually happens....

Anyways big hugs

Emma xxx

Dear Alan, so sorry you are feeling so bad at the moment. But you've had a tough time, so it's not really surprising, as Emma has wisely said. When I had depression, I was encouraged to go out for walks every day - and it helped me. If the sun is shining where you are today, perhaps you could wrap up warm and give it a try? The dog walkers, etc can be nice smiley people ...

Anyway, hope you feel a bit brighter soon. Sending you hugs, Val X

Hi Alan - Thinking of you and sending big hugs. I wonder if your Doctor would sign you out for 2 days per week - so that you'd only have to work for 3 days per week, with 4 days off - until your depression lifts? Worth a try anyway. I hope you can stay tough and not let the depression grab hold of you. We're all here for you!!!!

Love, Maureen xxxx

Thought you were looking better this year than you were last, if that's any consolation,

John