Funny tittle eh! of course its me who else , have had a bad week end the deppression seems to be coming back , don't know why , not been out off house since friday even though had said i would meet friends and folk i want to see. Not bothered going work today either . why does it come down like a wave over me every six months or so for no reason.
They tell me at hospital i am doing fine and the longer i am in remission the better chance i have of long term survival why do i then get these bowts of disbelief that i still can't get it out off my head that i am dyeing if only slowly but quicker than i want to .does that make sence i don;t know . I think a lot has to do with work and not likeing the place i work any more even though only do four days now still have to fight with myself to get me in every day . tried for new obs but soon as mention c then get the will let you know reply or same when see how old i am . can't see much future to be honest don't know what to do next sorry for rambling on
