On Monday morning I found Dad unconscious on his bed and in a bad way. Its a scene I will never forget. I called for an ambulance and we rushed him to hospital with the whole flashing lights and sirens going. He was in Resusitation for an hour before anyone would tell me what was going on.
They believe he suffered a fall, either before or during a Ischemic Stroke. I did not see him over the weekend and boy do I feel bad about that. The last person to see him walking about was the Ocupational health team who came to discuss him having a carer to come in and help with the personal hygiene side of things and that was on Friday. From the look of things he had been in that colapsed state all weekend.
He has never regained consciousness, and we have been told that its unlikely he will and to prepare for the worst. They are keeping him pain free and comfortable and that is all they can do. So I guess we play the waiting game now. It seems that the Cancer might not be the thing to take him in then end but the results of the stroke.
I am a wreck, everytime I close my eyes I see him lying there on the bed where I found him. I have been to the hospital every day and stayed all night monday. I feel sick everytime I have to walk into the room where he is. This could go on for some time until he finally decides its time to go. I hope I can get through this.............
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AJ I am so sorry to hear of your father's condition. It must be really hard for you to cope, but try to keep going. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. x x
Dear AJ I'm so sorry that you have had this awful experience. You are of course going to feel guilty that you were not there but you are NOT Superwoman!!! How would you have known he was going to have a stroke when everything up until then was focussed on his Cancer? Even the Occupational Health Team who saw him on Friday had no inkling this was about to happen. What has happened has happened and you can't turn back the clock so please do not beat yourself up anymore but focuss on the time you have left with your dear dad. He will be aware that you are there even if he can't communicate with you so talk to him. Make THIS time important so that gradually the image of finding him on the bed and the shock/guilt that goes with it will gradually be replaced by those more precious moments.
Sending you a big hug and a request that you take care of yourself too.
Dear AJ, I am sorry to read what has happened it must be such a shock to you. I too experienced a similar thing (the day i took my Dad into the Hospice to be looked after, his partner collapsed overnight and was found unconscious the next morning). My only advice would be to go and sit with your Dad and hold his hand and talk to him. Say ALL the things you have ever wanted to say as I am sure he will hear you. I am sending you a big hug to give you strength to cope with the tough times ahead. Keep strong. Debie
