OUCH!!!

Well I went to hossy for my monthly blood check, I was determined to find out what the results of my MRI scan is. The scan was in June and despite me asking in the July clinic at which I was told that they can take some time but my stand in doc would chase them and let me know. It got to August clinic and still no word, so I made my mouth go a little. This time it was my own specialist that said he would chase it and ring me. Ring me he did, but he said that rather than tell me over the phone he would tell me in clinic if we didnt meet before. but ther was an unusual degenerative condition there that he could see. He would prefer a bone man to look at it. I have spent all of August windering what he means, what is degenerative and what spinal condition. When was the bone man going to contact me and what the heck does all of this mean. My head has been in and out of me like you wouldnt believe. Today the heamo asked as soon as I walked in have I seen the bone doc..... no i replied should I have he hasnt contacted me. do you know what it said about your scan he asks............. no you wouldnt tell me on the phone i said. Ah.... he said. well, it looks like the disc at the top of your spine is pushed in and resting on your spinal cord and there are three discs in your lumber region that are crumbleing. But the good news is it has nothing to do with your Myeloma. Imagine my head now. What is my future. It gets harder to fight and fight. I thought being told that you have had four clear months of this Cancer I was doing well. But it looks like you are given something good then its grabbed from you and you get something bad to deal with again. ok thats it I've had my rant