My name is Lauren and I am 24 years old, my husband passed away on 18th October 2010 after a long 3 year battle with bowel cancer, he was just 31 years old. I have started this blog as I am finding it really difficult to find anyone else my age who has been widowed or can even begin to understand what we went through over the past few months in the lead up to my husbands death.
When my husband was diagnosed we had just brought our first flat and I was in my final year at university. He had been offered a new job in London and we were both so excited about the future. Then one day he felt a lump in his tummy and within 2 weeks he had surgery to remove the primary tumor. He then went on to join his first of many clinical trials, have a punctured lung, liver surgery, two courses of FOLFIRI, a massive small bowel resection, ileostomy, sepsis, another clinical trial, radiotherapy and was finally referred to a drug development unit where he had more study drugs. This all happened over three long years and to be honest now he has passed on I just feel angry about it all.
He was so brave and fought to hard it just all seems so unfair, he just wanted to live. I miss him so much and even though I have people around me no one really understands how it feels so battle for long and lose the person you love.
