Life still on hold

Hello Carer ....... I am so sorry that you lost your husband to this terrrible disease and now your Dad is having to go through treatment for oesophagus cancer. There's not much I can say that will help, but I would like to send you strength and hugs.

Love, Joycee xxx

Thank you.  dad has been for his consultation today and he feels better for getting that over with.

My biggest worry is that my pot of strength is running on empty!

Hello again Carer ...... it's amazing where we find the strength when it's most needed, but don't forget there should be some sort of back-up at the hospital / doctor's surgery ....... ask about your local Macmillan Nurse too ( mine was marvellous when I was finding the treatment side-effects difficult ) It's a hard enough road that you are travelling just now, so don't try and struggle on your own - take care and best wishes to both yourself and your Dad.

Love and hugs, Joycee xxx

Sending you love and strength and some caring hugs.

Respect

xxxx

Thank you. I am not on my own, I have other family but my dad was a tower of strength for me when my husband was ill.  I didn't find out till later that he knew abouthis own illness the day before my husband died and he came and sat with me that night in the early hours.  

Part of the problem is that it is the same hospital for the cancer treatment.  The hospital where he'll have his op is a different one so I think I can cope with that.  Luckily, he only needs to go to the oncology hospital a couple of times but I feel like I want to be there for him but if I go with him I worry that I wil go to pieces and make things worse.  Having said that, when I look back at what I have already been through and the amount of people that have said "I don't know how you did it" I just think well you just do, you comehow find the strength!