Time goes by....

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FormerMember

14 Dec 2009

Well as christmas looms ever closer I feel like my heart is breaking without Bill. We really thought he was going to beat this disease, but it was not to be.My life is now a lonley and dark place with no light at the end of the tunnel.I will never hear his voice again it was big deep sexy ,that was the first thing I fell in love with ,then his sense of houmor funny and twisted in the way only a man you love get's away with like the time he called me to say get dolled up we are going out for dinner so I got myself ready and he picked me up only to tell me he had a little errand to do first so he stops outside a chippy nips inside comes out with a big bag and camly puts in to the boot then drives for about ten miles and says this layby or the next one dear! I won't tell what my reply was suffice to say the air was blue lol.His ambition in life was to own a shop and he eventualy got his dream ,of all things a small antique shop then he went in to second hand furniture which I am now trying to keep going, to be honest I really do not know anything else after working togther for the last twenty odd years ,the shop might have to go though as I am finding it just too much without him . I have my memories of both good and bad times but given the chance would do it all over again with him at my side,he was my hero, the only person who made me feel whole ,safe and loved and I am very proud to have known him and to have had his love .

Bill I love you xxx

Nora x x x

FormerMember over 15 years ago

Not everyone has such lovely memories to draw strength from Nora, how lovely a man he sounds, may your memories always be with you and I'm sure he is by your side now and forever.

Jackie x
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

I am on the sofa wrapped up with hot water bottle and a cat that has decided that the best place to be is in my arms and no matter how many times I have tried to shift her she won't be moved!

Memory's are all I have,like the one I have of the first proper date we had, Bill had just turned up with no thought as to where he was going to take me,it was early afternoon on a Sunday so we just decided to go for a drive ,he took me to see where he was brought up and his old school and then to a bar where we had late lunch ,I say a late lunch it was in fact tea and biscuit's but that is what I told my parents! he was so nervous and so was I,he really was a gentle soul,and I was drawn to that aspect of his personality and of course the voice how I miss it now, it was deep and sexy and I am now trying to hear it in my mind and it still has the same effect on me yet, I have videos of him with our daughter and only wish I could watch them but it is still too raw and far too painful to do yet but in the future I will and be able to smile instead of cry as I watch him doing his funny smile and putting on a face for the camera,so glad we bought that camera now!

he will always be the man I loved in them, he wont grow old in them and I will not see the cancer and how it ravaged his once strong body, I will only see the arms and chest that was always ready for a cuddle or just to put my head on and be safe and secure in the knowledge he loved me.

Missing you so much and really only want to be with you Bill.

Nora x x x
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FormerMember over 15 years ago

Thank you Jackie for your kind words ,have just read your profile, why do people have to fight for a drug that should be given without a minuets thought , you have enough to contend with without that worry of will they, won't they game,glad you won,keep fighting the beast.

Nora x
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