This has felt like 6 weeks of hell .My mum is just her normal self , i spoke to her on the phone last night while i was waiting for my daughter to attend st john ambulance, and she said her legs didn't want to work this morning for ages but for me not to worry as she is ok , pretty pissed off as i would have gone straight over. Don't understand as it's only lung cancer shes got and her legs should be fine. Still feeling dumped by the sevices , no treatment plan , i rang mums macmillans nurse last friday , still waitng for her to ring back you never know perhaps none of this realy happened , off to see my gp latter to give him grief. It still feels that i wasted all those years growing up not appreciating mum properly and now it might be too late . Iwas a right tearaway growing up, but always loved her sorry mum you will forever be in my heart and with all the energy i have got will fight all the way , its a bloody battle though. any way blogging off now need coffee write again later tracy xxxlove to you all
