3rd dance with germ cell cancer

Just over two weeks ago i had the the dreaded consultation , only to be surprised that things were going well and the results were really good, only to be told that they think i should under go a third and final round of HDC , Oh ok well could be a lot worse, but if the results were so good, why put me though the hell again , With the concern that the last bit of chemo had entered my body over two months ago it seems…

Well the mind demons are back, and back hard., after the nice news on friday that things are going well, worries are back with a vengeance, so they say my AFP is down since the last check, but is it, it just means that its lower, then when they last checked, it could be rising, i've had that twice before. Things still show in the scan, yes they could be scar tissue , but if they are why tell me they want me to have another…

Well that was a surprise,the dreaded consultation day, i had all sorts of worries and of course being told news no one wants to hear, So with dread i sat in the out patients room and waited for my name to be called to find out the results of my ct scan and tumour markers, Eventually the consultant walked in and ask how much info i wanted to hear, Well to start is it good or bad news? Good news was the reply, my…

Well thats it, CT scan and blood taken, funny how your life boils down to 30 mins of tests, certainly didnt imagine this when i started treatment 2 years ago that i be facing the prospect of death and being told about it in a small little room sitting on plastic chairs Oh well just got to wait and see

Its been just over two weeks since i was released from prison, i mean hospital after my second dose of high dose chemo with stem cell transplant, and have a ct scan and blood test monday to reveal my fate Very unsure why they leaving such a large gap between being released from hospital and ct scans, not sure it bodes well for an attempt on a third cycle, although must admit this cycle really has zapped me , even a…