Just over two weeks ago i had the the dreaded consultation , only to be surprised that things were going well and the results were really good, only to be told that they think i should under go a third and final round of HDC ,
Oh ok well could be a lot worse, but if the results were so good, why put me though the hell again ,
With the concern that the last bit of chemo had entered my body over two months ago it seems likely that the effects of the chemo would be wearing off,
So off i toddle back to the royal Marsden to sign the form, chat away to the consultant and ask any questions,
With the knowledge that i had failed to produce enough stem cells at the first go
And only managed two the following time i decided to askma question
"How many times have you managec to extract stem cells after two rounds of HDC?"
The answer was well, we only tried once this year with germ cell cancer and it failed!
Oh bugger,
So three days into my course of injections, and no back ache, not a twinge,,
This really has put a downer on my mood,
To top it all i got a email from my clinical nurse explaining she be away o. Holiday for the next two weeks
noooooooooo
Once again when critical choices need to be decided on my clinical nurse , my one point of contact hs away again
With no one else to cover for her, this happened last year, and earlier this year,
To top it all there is a wonder drug that always seems to work, but i have the wrong cancer so its not licensed to be used on germ cell cancer,
Why tell me about it then take it away
So in a nut shell it appears that once again the treatment worked, but just not enough,
So close, but never ever the cigar
So looks like i go from curable to incurable
