I'm a 32F. I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer last month and had an operation to remove the uterus and tubes within ten days. I should be grateful it's stage 1, but my emotions have been so complex. I feel like I shifted into survival mode the moment I received the news. Now that four weeks have passed, my feelings are finally catching up. I feel so empty that I no longer have my uterus; perhaps I even feel less a woman. It's not like I want a baby right now, but I no longer have the choice to choose when I want one. I'm depressed, scared, and still in shock that it all really happened. I'd afraid it'll come back one day. Meanwhile the recovery journey isn't as comfortable as I wished. I have frequent urination at night and can barely sleep. I thought once it's over I'd be over the moon; my friends suggest I celebrate the victory, but I'm still stuck in this petrifying experience and am grieving too. I don't really know how to cope with all this.
