feeling frightened

Hi Lyn55, I'm sorry you are going through this, I would firstly ring the surgeons secretary and say that you will take a cancellation with any of the surgeons to speed up the waiting time. I found doing meditation whenever I was feeling distressed and worried calmed me right down and helped me cope with the wait better. Going for walks, socially distant if with friends or with your other half if you have one. Just doing things you enjoy each day and doing practical jobs to keep busy, all will help with the wait. 

Use this forum for support as everyone is brilliant. I'm 6 days post surgery so still sore and tired but glad I've got over that hurdle. All I know is that mine was high grade Serous Carcinoma but they haven't staged it yet- apparently they will do that in pathology. Mine showed confined to the womb on  CT scans but they took ovaries, tubes pelvic lymph nodes, cervix and half the Omentum plus sampling of the para aortic lymph node. They said there were no visible signs of the disease to the eye after taking that lot away. Post surgery they told me it was curable. I think for the last 2 years my dog knew about my cancer as she would not sit on my knee anymore or be in the same room but wouldn't walk with anyone else!

Good luck with pressing for an earlier date, I did and it came forward by 3 weeks. Sending gentle hug and calm your way xx

Hi Lyn,

Sorry you find yourself here. I'd be prepared for anything! They gave me my operation date, then two weeks after I got a phone call on a Thursday to go for a pre med the next day with a view to having the operation the next Tuesday!!! I had no decent nightie, no pads, no bag packed. It was panic stations as I was at the hospital all day on the Friday having a pre med and chest Xray. When I got home there was another phone call saying the operation had been delayed as they had had an emergency at the clinic that morning!! I didn't know whether to laugh or cry!!!

I busied myself by making up some frozen meals. You won't feel like standing cooking for a while. I also did lots of jobs around the house that I knew I wouldn't be able to do. I got the garden straight, cleaned windows and generally tidied the house so it could be left for a while.

Good luck xxxx

Thank you for your reply and advice . thinking of you xx

Hi lyn55

This is the forum where you will get answers and hopefully find reassurance, we've all just started, in the middle of, post op, pre treatment believe me we all know where you're coming from. I've never been poke or prodded in so many places and people have peered in places no one had ventured before!

Like PicNik says, ring the surgeons secretary - there's been several incidents where op's have been brought forward - I know when you're mind's turning somersaults it doesn't help - the waiting and wondering is hell!

I'm 4 weeks post op tomorrow and healed up very quickly, just minor discomfort when I know I've overdone things. Mine was also high grade serous. I was over the moon to be told my body was cancer free, then back to the depths to be told I've still a few malignant malingerers so I'm also having 3 treatments of Brachytherapy starting 28th October.

Emotions still veer from hysteria to laughter and back - I confess I haven't felt depressed - it's what it is. I'm lucky to have retained my sense of humour.

Any time you want to sound off we're all here to listen and virtually hold to hand and hug you!

Big hugs, Barb xx 

Thank you,  and yes the reassurance does help, I have a date now the 12 Nov`  so I have a plan to focus on now which is helping ,  I always thought I as quite a strong person but this really knocks you down more than you could ever believe, 

  Thinking of you and thank you again ,Hugs to you too xx

Hi Lyn55, glad you have a date and not too far away, did you tell them you could take any cancellation too if one came up before then? It's always worth another call to the secretary. Keep your mindnd body as fit as possible until then and prepare easy meals and aids around the house for your return when you will be told to do virtually nothing for 4-6 weeks. We are here for you xx gentle hug

I’m almost two years post surgery and remember how ir felt at first diagnosis. You will go through a lot of emotions which is perfectly normal. Concentrate on preparations for the time you will be recovering. Get support in place and be good to yourself. Good luck!