Late night ramblings

Hi again Squeaky,

Yes, I would have preferred a bit of shrinkage in the pancreas. I remember when I had taxol, the first result was stable but the second was a 20% shrinkage so I dare to hope. It’s like holding back the tide.

And yes, poor Michael and his car. Hopefully not a huge job...t-cut? And I’ll butter him up with chocolate. Lucky he’s such a nice man. Could have been much worse. 

And I have a new hat for Paris. Like I needed one! 

Thank you for thinking of me. 

Pepys xx

Hello Pepys and friend

That’s a bummer about your pancreas tumour. Pepys. They’re evil aids and have a havit of surrounding themselves with some protein or enzyme that makes it difficult for chemo to get through. Much as I admire nature, sometimes it works against you.

The car scrape story reminded me of doing something similar when visiting my ex and his wife. However their neighbour (who’s car I bumped) wasn’t as easily placated as your garden man and tried for ages to extort a lot of money out of me. Turned out it was a con and his car was already damaged. My ex took charge of it all as I’d had to get back to the UK - think he enjoyed playing the hero!

My husband contacted the vet re: the poorly budgie but they’ve only had half the results back from his poo sample. What on earth can one small bird have to warrant a big report? No wonder it was expensive. I want to know whether we can help him - I can’t stand to think of him suffering. Although he doesn’t appear to be in pain. I hope not anyway.

Had lunch today with one of my close friends who had a hideously complicated bowel cancer nearly five years ago. He was bemoaning his weight gain and we both agreed the one good thing about being ill was how thin we got (he’s gay and I’m disgustingly vain). But then we both agreed that if we were to be that thin again we’d have to have our cancers back and we didn’t want that! He’s been my guide through the whole horrible business and really keeps my spirits up. 

Argh, I meant Pepys and FRIENDS as you are all lovely!

Hi Lady Pepys. Sod the car incident! No wonder it happened though. You've got so much on your mind. Great news about your bone tumours. You sound like a positive person. Obviously a disappointment with your pancreas. But try to think of your Paris trip. It must be so hard trying to balance your life with such a serious health issue on your mind. I & so many on this site admire your emotional strength. Have a lovely well deserved holiday. Have a few vin rouges!!! Relax & savour every 'froggy' moment. X

Hi, Pepys, you asked ages ago about any books on wolves. I read a fictional book by Jodi Picoult called Lone wolf. I borrowed it from the library (I couldn't survive without one, too many books to read, and it is my way of 'escaping' whatever is happening). That is nothing new I remember doing that as a child. Her books always have a bit of a twist in them that make you think, but they are always a good read!!

Hope you have a wonderful time in Paris, we thought about going when we go on a big holiday in July, but decided it would be too much (3 weeks of the cats in cattery and no cat for me to talk to whilst away........ thats my excuse, anyhow!!!!!!!)

Take care everyone, I will try and clear my brain fog before I post anything else!!!!

Tilly 

Dear Tilly,

How kind of you to remember that. I’ll get the book from Amazon. 

Yes, looking forward to Paris, which is my very generous brother’s treat. I can’t wait! We’re staying in Sacre Coeur so lovely and central. But I expect to be walking rather a lot and I’m used to that, having lived in London for a number of years. And I’m also looking forward to travelling on Eurostar. My ex-husband (no 1) is driving me to Ashford so it’ll be pretty relaxing all in all. Can’t complain. I won’t be putting him on cat duty though because he keeps complaining my cat is too fat and a few days starvation would do him no harm. Eek!

Pepys xx

Tilly, I read some of your posts to get an idea of what you’re going through. I applaud your attitude. You only get one chance in this life.,in one sense your husband is a lucky guy. Make each other laugh every day. 

Pepys xx

Desr Tilly,

Just got my copy of ‘Lone Wolf’ for 4p plus postage!

Pepys xx

Gosh, sorry Pepys -forgot about the wolf books! I only tend to read non-fiction when it come to wolves but there are a couple that aren’t too “dry” if you’re after something that isn’t all facts and figures. I recommend Wolfer: A Memoir and Wolfland by Carter Niemeyer - he was a trapper who became fascinated by wolves and ended up being one of the team who helped reintroduce wolves back into Yellowstone in 1995. I know Carter and he’s a fabulous bloke - very laconic and laid back and about seven feet tall! Also Wolf by Garry Marvin is a good precise exploration of the wolf’s role in mythology and legend and how it has become embedded in the human psyche in various forms. I found that one very interesting and have met Garry when he’s lectured at the wolf Trust. He is a professor of animal/human studies so knows his onions. Of course, if you are interested in the facts and figures you can’t go past anything by David Mech who is the eminent wolf biologist of the last forty-odd years and is always updating his research as wolves are difficult animals to study in the wild, being rather elusive and not keen on people (for good reason)!

Hi Nikki,

I will have great fun searching those out. When I looked online, I kept finding childten’s Books.

Many thanks both and I will soon be back on posting form. I keep falling asleep. Xx