first recurrence

I’m so sorry that you are in this place. It is the thing we all think about but firmly push to the back of our minds. 
I can only suggest that you don’t hold back the tears. It is ok to feel what you are feeling and your mind and body needs to be able to express those feelings. 
Be honest with your friends and family and tell them what is happening. This is s**t and unfair and you don’t want to do it again and those people who helped you last time will step up again. 
May God’s blessing be on you as you navigate this new phase of your journey. Xx

thank you, it's the knowing what will be like the chemo 2nd time around. x

I'm so sorry that you have to face this.  But in 8 years there's been so much treatment progress so maybe there are new more targeted therapies, and maybe the chemo will be more manageable.  I was amazed when I had my 8 hours of chemo each time that there were people coming in for just an hour or so of better targeted chemo.  Willing you strength to get through this and out the other side.  You did it before, you will do it again!  xxx