Hello all.
I am one of the "lucky" ones... Diagnosed with subungual melanoma of the left thumb, breslow 0.5mm, stage 1a.
Recommended treatment is wide area excision, which in this case is amputation at the distal joint (first knuckle). Aside from any lurking surprises when the removed section is biopsied, it should be "one and done".
I'm about three weeks from hearing the biopsy result and probable treatment plan and about three days from seeing the consultant and CNS who have confirmed the recommendation.
No date for surgery but I gather 2 - 3 weeks is probable. So the Nov / start Dec feels likely.
I've made no secret of my diagnosis and outcomes with those around me - there'll be an obvious physical change when it's done so no point in keeping it to myself. All very logical.
Although most times I'm calm, I'm currently struggling with periodic anxiety. It's quite gripping and distracting, hitting in the small hours. I feel very much like I'm too have a (apparently) healthy digit cut off of me... Rather like a punishment for a crime. In my minds eye, I can see myself being led to the hospital for the "sentence" to be carried out.
Am I strange and alone in that sensation? Any advice?
Thanks all
