With a heavy heart.

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 It is with the heaviest of hearts that I write this. After Christmas my husband was not feeling well. His color was off, his energy levels had dropped significantly and something was just not right. I brought him to the hospital and we found out his hemoglobin was quite low. He had a CT scan the following week which unfortunately revealed that his cancer has progressed to the point of exhausting all other options. This is the end. We meet with the palliative care doctor this week to start that process. He will remain at home, this is his wish. I feel myself breaking more and more each day. But I am trying to stay strong for him. 

My husband is 41 years old. I am 39. I am a stepmom to his two sons. We have a 2 year old puppy named Ellie, however my husband calls her Gary.  I was gifted a nickname "Chip" that my husband has called me for the past 6 years. Our time is being cut short and I really wanted to grow old with him. He is and always will be the love of my life.He loves taking the scenic route on drives because he doesn't want to rush through life, He can make me laugh like no other. His faith gives him so much peace, He is loving and kind. It has been a privilege for me to be taking care of him each day.

We have tremendous love and support around us. Both of our families live close by. We are taking the time he has left and cherishing each day. My husband always finds beauty in simplicity and I encourage you to do the same. I know this journey is a difficult one you are all amazing. wish you all strength, Keep fighting and never lose hope. 

  • So so sorry to read this,  its the road we all dread, your husband sounds like a lovely man, As I go trough my journey I am more and more aware of how trivial many things are, my kids are my world,mHeart dog is my emotional crutch, my wife probably gets the short end with my emotions worries, you love shines through here...and yes we all need to the beauty in simplicity Heart️ 

  • I wish that I had words to make this time somehow more tolerable or bearable for you. Your husband sounds like an amazing man. All that I can do is to hold your family in my thoughts and prayers.