Spread to lymph nodes

Hi Alottment lover, I remember when I was told I had metastatic melanoma 6 years ago I think I wallowed for a bit before self preservation mechanism kicked in, so I’m hoping your fight will come back. I can see how being a palliative nurse can make you focus on that part of things but hopefully that kind of care is way in the future. My attitude I think is coloured by the fact that I once became a complete responder after 6 months of Pembro. True that for me a year after starting treatment it was back but for many complete responders it stays away for many years. I’ve had a scan yesterday and may be starting a clinical trial soon which for some people again shows promise of complete response so I’m holding on to that positivity at the moment. 

I’m awake at 2am though as I fell asleep early, A combination of a dark journey home from the scan and a reaction to contrast solution I think making me sick and going to bed early has woken me up. I bet when you look after others you want to see them feeling comfortable with being near the end physically and mentally, but as that’s a long way off and I bet you are still feeling well physically I have to possibly unhelpfully day come on down days are very natural and will come back but there is also a lot of treatment good news around as well. The waiting is the worst as you feel a sort of lack of control, or at least I do, the only thing you can control in those waits is eating healthily and exercising to give your immune system the best fighting chance against this melanoma. 

I hope tomorrow morning brings a more positive day for you.

I hope you find your fight and Better days lie ahead xx