lung cancer stage 3

hi free. sorry you have found yourself here.  total turmoil   at first, takes a long time to come to terms with. at least your team seems to have set your plan up so your doing well. TC 

Hi Darlo

it was my first treatment day this week which was hard, I did not know what to expect or how to deal with it. One minute your life is going good then you are hit with this bombshell

free 12

i understand that free. my way of dealing is to block it out but i need to take someone to meetings as i dont take it in.  mine is 3 yrs on so they must be doing something right.

Hi Free12 sorry you find yourself here. I know how your feeling one minute everything's going great next minute wham that dreaded word cancer.  I've stage 4 lung cancer treatable not curable it's in my spine as well.

At the moment after my treatment of chemo and radiotherapy everything's going great. I try to be as positive as I can.  I'm lucky that I have never had pain just couldn't breath at first but ok now after treatment and tumour shrunk.

I'm looking forward to 4 nights with my daughter and friend in two weeks time in Tenerife can't wait.

I just keep everything crossed and hope it stays in control for now, mine will be a year next month when I was diagnosed.

All the best with your treatments and keep positive.

X

Hi free12

Completely normal to feel like this. You feel like your whole life has been turned upside down. And everything feels like it is moving fast, one minute you are living your normal life, the next you are having cancer treatment. I went from being overwhelmed to grieving for my old life. But you do adjust to your new life. I am 5 years on, and I now have a good life, it’s just different. 

Good luck in your treatment. 

Hi Free

Sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I hope the treatment was ok and minimal side effects.

All sorts of emotions come up at diagnosis and for some time after. What's the five stages, shock, anger, denial. bargaining and acceptance. I definitely did all of those. I also went back stages between them again a few times.

I have always likened it rather than the cliched rollercoaster, but to a whirl wind.

You may notice symptoms (seeing the whirlwind in the distance). You then realise you have to do it by going to the doctor (you see it coming in your direction). All of a sudden you are diagnosed (whirlwind is on you). You then have treatment and you loose all control. (the whirlwind has thrown you around). Then it is done and you are lying on the ground regrouping. The whirlwind has gone but your in a different place to where you started, feeling battered and bruised and not sure how to re join the life you had before.

If you are on chemotherapy, they give you steroids for about 4 days which also I find really hightens my emotions and tends to send me tearful (I try not to cry in public usually). So there may be more too why you are feeling extra fragile this week along with treatment almost making it all real.

I hope you are ok and keep posting here, it does help and often there is at least one of use who has had your treatment before, or felt like you do at the moment.

Hi ginajsy

That’s how I feel in a nut shell am on chemo and immunotherapy which is ok. But when I feel like am coming to terms with it someone tells you different, I have also found that am telling people what I think of them but that’s not me am normally a very layered back but not now