Scaring myself reading too much on the threads starting RT 27/1/25

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I’ve been told my cancer is treatable and curable and I’ve just read something on here that has sent me spiralling. I don’t know when a little knowledge (mine) is dangerous. I’m just feeling scared of getting on this runaway escalator which is transitioning me from feeling well into a radiotherapy cancer patient.

I’ve had a day of phone calls, CT scan and mask fitting, dietician, procedure to fit feeding tube…  I wasn’t worried about my planning CT until I saw someone else had more growths on theirs.  I was going alone as I thought it was just a process now I’m worried it may be a results day! 

I’m so aware of my body - is the lump on my head going to be a spot or is it sinister? Are the lumps at the base of my skull fat or tumours? I feel sick but have hardly eaten today (had a tooth extraction yesterday pre RT). 

All of the talk of afterwards - scares the xxx out of me. I have been told I’ll start to feel more myself  around weeks 16-20 but on here I have read loads of people very much working on getting back to a new normal a year or two later. 

i feel tired and overwhelmed