Stress and Worry

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Hi everyone, mind playing tricks on me after base of tongue cancer HPV16

It's 3 months after treatment for me , I  feel great , lymph node lump gone to touch  , can't eat much or taste but I can drink a pint of Guiness silver lining. 
Had my PET scan 8 days ago ready to see the consultant end of March , over the weekend I get another letter for a PET scan this Monday coming  , must be a mistake I thought ring the hospital up for them to say there has been a mistake it should be another 3 months , alarms bells start going and the feeling in the pit of my stomach that we all know.  I still have Cancer my mind says,  let's call the Mcmillans to ease my concern but all that does is send me more into a panic , Mcmillans call me back saying your consultant will see you Thursday 2 days away , two weeks earlier than was planned.
I only called up for reassurance instead the tone of their voice and the we can't help or tell you anything you have to speak with the consultant sends me into panic attack mode. 
I am just worried sick again from feeling so positive , the big lump has gone in my neck and planning when should i go back to work to the feeling I had when they told me we think you pontential have Cancer in June 2022 to finding it in September 2022 after every test and tonsils out .
So stressed , how do people stay positive and cope with the anxiety . I am looking at it now trying to logically think what it could be .
Drives you crazy .
  • Hi. All I can say is try not to stress it’s not uncommon for hot spots to show on pet ct scans. Am sure some others will pop on later ti explain what happened to them. 12 weeks is early to have a pet ct scan I was 18 weeks when I had mine . Some  times there’s still residual radiation hanging around the scan will then light up. I must add urs bad form fir a letter to go out before anyone’s had  chance to speak  to you I wouldn’t have been happy either. Take comfort that HPV driven tumours treatment is very rare that it fails at the first hurdle. But it’s the waiting game please keep of google. If you’re up to it please let us know how you get on.  Hugs Hazel x 

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

    https://www.instagram.com/merckhealthcare/reel/DBs8Y0niJ8N/

  • Thanks RadioactiveRaz , your kind words have already helped . I will keep you posted .

  • Hi Brum

    i had a PET/CT at 16 weeks that showed a hotspot. They are really common and 99.9% of them are due to residual inflammation from the treatment. I was given a choice of another scan three months hence or immediate biopsy. 
    The biopsy was clear. 
    There is little point trying to second guess what’s happening. Thursday is less than two days away now and I’m sure you’ll get an explanation then. 
    Sometimes the scanner booking office is more efficient than the consultants appointment one so you get scan dates with no explanation. 
    Remember though that HPV driven cancer is curable and treatment failure in the first six months is practically unheard of. 
    There has, to me, been a pretty rotten breakdown of communication, simply that. 
    Best of luck 

    Dani 

    Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019

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  • Hi Beesuit 

    Thankyou for replying back to me .  It's so helpful to speak with others who have gone through what I am going through and understand the roller coaster of emotions and feelings.

  • Hi.  A worrying time, but you should have some answers tomorrow. 

    As to why they want to do another PET scan that makes no sense unless the first scan was messed up.  The PET/CT should give them all the information they need. as it tends to do (at least mine did) the majority of the body. 

    I know the frustration of the hospital not saying anything over the phone, but they may have brought you in early as all hospitals are trying to get waiting times down and if they had a slot suddenly freed up they would like to use it rather than waste it.

    Let us know how it goes and remember this group is here to support you for good and bad.

    Peter
    See my profile for more details of my convoluted journey
  • Hi Brum I have been in that same situation myself and am actually waiting on the results of my scan when I see my surgeon on Friday but I know I have cancer but its a case of if its spread since my operation. I am seeing the oncologist 5 days later so who is going to give me the results. Unfortunately these things are out of our hands sometimes and stressing about them is no good , Best to busy yourself sometimes if you cannot deal with the facts. All the Best with the results Regards Minmax 

  • Hi everyone , just got back from the hospital , primary tongue cancer has gone and the neck node has some residual radiation there should be good in 3 months.   The issue that they wanted to speak to me about was a tiny grain of activity on the base of my spine that they need to rule out . 

    Booked in for an MRI scan 

  • Hi Brum. Good news like we all,said it can happen residual radiation. As for the spine issue they are on the ball fingers and toes x that it’s nothing. Hope  you  told them how  the handling  upset you they need to know so a proper protocol is put in place. Many others would go to pieces. Keep in touch and let us know how you get on. 
    Hazel x

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

    https://www.instagram.com/merckhealthcare/reel/DBs8Y0niJ8N/

  • Hi Min Sending hugs for tomorrows appointment. 
    hugs Hazel x

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

    https://www.instagram.com/merckhealthcare/reel/DBs8Y0niJ8N/

  • Many Thanks Hazel XX much appreciated