Hi there, I live in Northern France. just joined the community as need help. just over 3 years ago in July noticed a small lump in my throat when shaving it did not go away so saw my doctor. he sent me for an ultrasound, and they said my gland was probably infected and ot would go within a couple of weeks using antiseptic mouthwash, but it was not cancer. 3 weeks on it had not gone and my saliva was drying up making it harder to swallow. back to doctor who immediately arranged for me to see an ENT specialist. He was not happy as i had a growth under my Tonge and the delay in getting to see him was not good. He sent me for an IMRI scan and called me in with the very bad news. it was now the start of October and my growth had grown from a small lump to a huge lump Measuring 8 Cm X 5 Cm. They class the tumours on a scale of 1 to 4 in France and mine was at the top end of 4. And just to make things worse was under the base of my Tonge in an extremely difficult place for him. they carried out a biopsy and said i had HPV. We had a long chat and i realised after our meeting he was accessing me and my attitude. He called me back in the following week Although i was at a late age of life at 69 because i was reasonably fit and healthy and more important to him had very high Morale and attitude to life and was not frightened by his diagnosis he was prepared to take on the huge challenge for him to help me as best he could. He sent me to radiology and for 5 days a week for 6 weeks they bombarded my throat with the strongest lasers that my throat could take. along with Chemotherapy. After the treatment the radiologist said the laser burning would continue inside my throat for 2 months and they would MRI scan me then to see what the result was. The ENT specialist then called me in and gave me the bad news The tumour had shrunk by about 2 thirds but was still around 5 x 3 Cm. He explained i could have no more laser treatment as my throat would not be able to take it. my only 2 options were to monitor it and see what it did or undergo a massive 12-hour operation in which he would remove all my Tonge and larynx and all the soft tissue in that area, and seal off the tube that splits the air and food tubes and perform a tracheotomy. i Have no fear of dying as i have had a great life so went for the operation. it was highly successful, and he removed all the tumour apart from a very small nodule that was too near the artery that feeds my brain for him to risk nicking it. so now on blanket chemo every 5 to 6 weeks for the next 2 years by then he hopes my throat would have self-healed enough to laser the final bit.
Oh Zoot. I’m so sorry you have had to endure such life changing surgery. You must indeed be made of strong stuff to take it head on.
You’re right about the radiotherapy. It’s awful and can’t be repeated.
Have you been offered immunotherapy?
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
Thaks for your quick response and no i have not been offered Immunotherapy. i have a meeting next week for the specialist who is coordination my chemo and is very good and understanding and will mention this too her. The suppressive chemo is so very mild i do not get any side effects and actually look forward to visiting the hospital that day as they spoil me feed me and i cannot do anything else but rest that day. My problem at the moment and reason for joining Macmillan is i have amental issue with what is happening. I have always been a very impatient person and normally expect quick results. before the cancer operation was very non-confrontational as deep inside i have a very bad red mist which i have managed to control since i was 18 but it also allowed people to take advantage of me. But the operation for some reason took away any patience that i have and has left me very confrontational with anyone who tries to wrong or cross me. This has caused me serious anger management which fortunately my wife has helped control it I am learning to notice it happening and stop and try to calm down. My big problem mentally is i cannot sit still and relax and have to be doing something. which has never been a real issue in my life till now. I went to stay for a week in Montpelier last May with a practicing Buddhist who is a psychologist who introduced me to a basic Buddhist mediation. He lived in the middle of nowhere in a huge forest in the mountains i went out in search of a lake got completely lost and had to spend the night asleep in the forest. the experience was a life changing moment for me.
Hi Zoot
I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis and the treatment you are having. It sounds really tough and you are managing such a challenging situation in such a positive and proactive way.
A cancer diagnosis is life changing and everyone copes with it differently and you have faced it head on. I applaud your attitude.
The anger you feel is so understandable as your life has taken a sudden change in direction, one not of your choosing. The fact that you are taking steps to try and take control of your anger is to be applauded.
When I had my first cancer diagnosis I felt so lost. Up until then I thought I knew the direction my life was taking and had it planned out when all of a sudden wham everything changed and I was on a different path not of my choosing. I felt so useless after my first op, radiotherapy and during my recovery after normally living a very busy working and family life. I had to start thinking differently and take a different direction. I have lots of side effects now from 3 ops (one in 2013, 2019 and 2022) and 2 lots of radiotherapy at different times but i I have adjusted to the changes over time and taken on a real appreciation of life that I did not have before. I now ‘smell the roses’ and every day am thankful for another chance at life which I no longer take for granted. I live life in the present instead of worrying about the future.
What a wonderful idea to go and learn meditation. Quieting the mind is such a wonderful thing to do and must be making a real difference.
Your wife sounds so supportive and understanding as it must be tough for her too. It is a different path for her and just as tough as her life has changed also.
Macmillan has counselling available if that would be helpful as they have a great understanding of the issues with a cancer journey. Get in touch with them if you think that might be of assistance.
Sending you really positive thoughts.
Lyn
Sophie66
Hi Zoot welcome from me can’t add to what the others have said. I’m 4 years post radiotherapy for tonsil cancer with several affected lymph nodes. Also HPV positive. We are among g the few unlucky ones whose body didn’t get rid of h p v and have now had oral cancers. Mine was luckily diagnosed quite early. If you need to vent have a go on here we never judge as we’ve all been in a similar position. Well done on the operation and chemo radiotherapy I had 35 sessions and 2 chemo.
Hazel
Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz
My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now 6 years post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help
2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers
I've found meditation has massively helped with regards to my mental health. So has exercise even if it's just going out for a walk which changes the state of my mind.
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