This is not a club I want to join, but here I am. I went to see my GP with vague symptoms of itching and feeling my legs didn't work. Blood tests diagnosed iron deficient anaemia, fast track referral to find out why, gastroscopy and colonoscopy two weeks later, Endoscopist mentioned an area of concern in my gullet. Here I am now, starting chemo next week then later in the year horrific surgery. I wake each morning in tears thinking if this op, it's terrifying me. I'm kind of feeling this is my last week of life as I've known it. I've got no symptoms, esting and swallowing are no problem and I just feel devastated for myself and for my family. My daughter had cervical cancer 13 years ago, the treatment wrecked her health, but thank God she's still alive.
It's in my head all the time, everything I do, there's this voice in my head going I've got cancer..... how do you shut it up? Sorry I'm being really pathetic but I jyst cant get my head round this.
